Out and About (BFP)

I've had a pretty exciting few months... I haven't posted about it for fear of having something bad happen again... but I'm excited to post that I'm pregnant! I am even "out" on facebook about it! I had a pretty pathetic facebook announcement if you ask me. I could have got more creative but I didn't.

I had photos taken of Nolan in a "Big Brother" shirt:

The picture didn't quite illuminate the wording on the shirt though:

Yeah you can't really see it, but I liked the picture and the stinker look on his face. His hair is kind of long so it looks like he might have a mullet... but yeah, that's my facebook announcement.

Day I Found Out:

Believe it or not, there is a 2nd line there on this pee stick.

Being in the habit of just peeing on all the sticks, I had been testing starting about 3 days prior and got negatives, stark white test strips, and actually enjoyed 2 beers the night before getting this lil beaut.

I tested on the morning of Friday, May 15th. I seriously had nothing but good intentions after seeing this line. I was going to wait at least 12 hours and test again after work and really be sure that there was a 2nd line there before sharing with Brian. I examined this test with vigor, was it line eye? I mean, look at it... it could easily just be line eye.

Brian came upstairs and kissed me goodbye as he left for work. I heard him rustling downstairs as my heart was pounding. He was about to leave and I was the only witness to this extreme squinter. I took some glamour shots (like the one posted) so I could examine it throughout the day. As I heard the door open for Brian to go outside my mouth starting speaking and my brain was telling me to shut up. "Brian, can you come up here for a second?" I say... DAMMIT EASLEY, I foiled my well thought out plan of waiting until a darker line and having Nolan "tell him" by wearing the shirt above later today. Nope he's coming upstairs. Do I lie to him? Do I just tell him never mind.

No, I'm like "Ummmm I think I see a 2nd line here" and show him the stick. "Oh yeah, I think I see it too!"

HOLY SHIT. He sees it too. I'm not going nuts. That isn't line eye. Guys DON'T have line eye. I'm fairly certain it's a girl thing and only when you're really desperate to see a line will you actually see it. But no, he saw it in a matter of seconds. Hardly any straining.

Grinning I head off to work ready to post my image online to get scrutinized by other professional squinters.

The following days were nerve racking as I saw what appeared to be a lighter line the next day. Thinking I was experiencing a chemical pregnancy (see the 12 DPO stick compared to 11 DPO) really depressed me. I sent a message to my midwife and got a blood draw appointment for Monday.

Luckily, by Monday I was able to see a much more obvious, darker line. But I still went for the blood draw anyways. Blood draw was good, numbers doubled after 2 days as they should with a non chemical pregnancy. Relief ensues.

This time around has been much easier than when I was pregnant with Nolan. With him I didn't know if I could stay pregnant. I don't know, and will never know, what caused my miscarriage... And the real mindfuck of it all (just to remind you) was that I didn't find out until 11 weeks which is incredibly late to find out about a miscarriage. And the fact that I didn't have any symptoms of a miscarriage (ie bleeding) 3 weeks after the baby stopped growing means that I was going to be in limbo for weeks until I could hear the heartbeat on the doppler.

Of course that's not to say that this pregnancy has been without fear. I didn't tell people super early along time time. I did tell some people as early as 7 weeks... And earlier for my fam. I got an ultrasound around 8 weeks after having a scare earlier that morning but saw a beating heart within a couple of hours (thank you for getting me in so quickly midwife!!)

Fast forward to now.

I'm currently 14w3d and here we go:

Best Moments This Week: We went to Colorado. It was a difficult trip considering it was a short weekend and a long drive. But Nolan was a trooper. Nolan + iPad + Toy Story (1, 2, & 3) makes for a happy camper. He did have his moments though, nap time was few and far between so he got crabby too.

Total Weight Gain: Yeesh, I don't actually know. Probably at least a couple pounds although I had been feeling quite sick recently. I like to equate it with constantly feeling hungover but without the fun night of drinking before.

Maternity Clothes: Sometimes, I'm breaking out my old shirts now to increase my wardrobe. Now that I'm "out" at work, I don't mind if people see the ruched sides which clearly scream MATERNITY SHIRT. I also got a cute pair of maternity pants which I wore yesterday. I feel sorta stylish!

Symptoms: Yeah... big time sickness. Food aversions up the waz and vomming when I brush my teeth (enhanced gag reflex)

Sleep: Super tired, going to bed early a lot of the time if I can manage it.

Food Cravings: None really, I did want a brownie yesterday, but that was only after I saw it and was like "dammit, that looks good"

Anything making you queasy or sick: Yeah, everything.

Movement: Could be? Could also be too early.

Stretch Marks: No, and I'm a lucky SOB who didn't get them last pregnancy so cross your fingers!

Gender Prediction: I could go both ways here, sickness wise I'm feeling girl since I didn't feel sick with Nolan. I've had a dream where I've found out I've had both a boy and a girl.

Labor Signs: Nope

Belly Button In or Out?: In

Wedding Rings on or off?: On

Happy or Moody?: Yes

Purchases for baby: Only a Cyclone onesie I had to buy shortly after I got my BFP and felt comfortable enough celebrating.

Purchases for Momma: I bought some super cute maternity dresses from Pea in the Pod for my bro's wedding. They're SUPER formal and I'll definitely only wear them once... But it's my BROTHER'S WEDDING!

Miss Anything?: Yes, WINE AND BEER!

Looking forward to: Scheduling my anatomy scan so I can start counting down the days! Non-pregnancy related - TOTALLY looking forward to my bro's wedding!!!

Derpy Bump Pic: